Trusting... with my whole being

"Jealousy is not a barometer by which the depth of love can be read, it merely records the degree of the lover's insecurity." Margaret Mead

I came across this quote and it got me to thinkin...

I am not a jealous wife. I haven't always not been a jealous wife, but now, I am not. When we were young and just beginning our relationship, I was OH SO jealous of the very thought of him showing even the slightest bit of interest in another girl. Get it? I was J-to-the-ealous. Back then, though, he broke my heart time and time again, thinking he was in love with "that girl", (yep, that's what I called her...hell, that's still what I call her when we reminisce) blah, blah. We got through it. I persevered. And, heh, I won him...over!

I think my current state of calm comes from the fact that I trust my husband with everything I have. I know that where he lays his head at night is with me and am confident that this will never change. I think, even more importantly though, it comes from a certain improvement in my own sense of self-worth and self-esteem. I am coming to terms with myself, with my past. I am becoming more comfortable with WHO I am. I'm satisfied with me.

I guess liking myself kinda gives me more reason to believe that he should like me, too. How perfect!